I'm thinking you guys don't exactly get what I'm talking about. The nature of what I do and what I want to do requires competition. Sports are competitive things, they require that I compete. Not competing is not an option. I love what I do. I don't care who beat me, or how. If they beat me, I wasn't perfect. I strive for perfection. The fact that they beat me does not make me dislike them, I can't dislike someone for being better than me, if they are better than me that's my fault. Playing for a prize is only granting authority to the people who respect the nature of a competition, and therefore is respecting only the nature of competition itself. The nature of a competition is that the person who did better will come out on top. When the party giving out medals ceases to respect the nature of competition, I cease to respect the prize. I am not railing against second place, I'm railing against putting the person in second place up on a pedestal which, for me, serves to make me more acutely aware of every thing I did wrong. Second place is failure, treating it like a victory is just patronizing. I do have two gold medals on my shelf. I don't count either of them. Why? Because they were gold medals from when I played a minimal role (9-10 all-stars in baseball, 7th grade travelling basketball). I didn't play well enough to deserve those (possible exception being the 9-10 all-stars but the coach's sons all got to play), there were a million kids who deserved those in front of me. It's not about the gold, it's about perfection. However, if you are perfect you'll get the gold. Treating second place like a victory is making it something that it's not.