Hi, My name is Amy and I am pleased to be a "noob" here. I have spent a small bit of time wandering the posts and am eager to learn more, as well as meet you all.
A bit about my journey thus far:
Ironically enough, I was introduced to O'ism through a series of fantasy novels.
Mr. Goodkind is strongly influenced by Ayn Rand. His "wizard rules" are based on the foundations of O'ism. I had joined one of his sites on line, and kept reading about an influencial author and a certain title of Atlas Shrugged. Needless to say I have since thanked Mr. Goodkind for the start into my new life.
I picked up her masterpiece and was immediately smitten. I breezed through her pages and ideals so quickly (4 days of intense reading) that I re-read it immediately fearing I had missed some details; then went and purchased it as well as Fountainhead.
My new mantra was "check my premise" . I had a bit of an epiphany during those pages. Mr. Goodkind reminded me how much I enjoyed learning...and Ayn Rand solidified and expanded the concept. I enjoy learning....new discovery.....life to be lived! I was amazed that I had forgotten the most important concept of life....living it.
Now the nitty gritty:
During all this self-exploration I have two wonderful children, that had yet to be baptised. I was raised with a Roman Catholic upbringing. I wanted (as all good Catholics/sheep do) to have my children baptised within my faith. My husband's only reccomendation was that I learn more about my faith. (He had been through perochial schools but not as a Catholic and had a really bad taste in his mouth for Catholicism). Soooo, I did. I checked my premise!...I studied my beliefs and why I believed.....why my parents believed....why my grandparents and so-on. Needless to say, because here I am 5 yrs later, with children that are not baptised, at what I discovered....I didn't like. This was then added to the fact that the church did not "approve" of the people I chose as "Godparents". Apparently the church's dogmatic laws know more than I when it comes to raising my kids.
The church had no answer for me besides ...."because its law" which in fact is NO ANSWER at all. I appealed through the arch-diocese (sp?) and still got a resounding "NO"...they continued to explain how I could have a "stand-in" Catholic for ceremonial purposes. WHAT?!? ok...so here the church was telling me that I could lie to God for ceremony...for their ceremony and to adhere to their "canon" laws.....I say WTF? (sorry for the implied expletive), but how contradictory can you get?
So this lead me further into my searching....The more I learned....the more I found my true identity and why it was ok to continue without the cloud of guilt following me everywhere.
Guilt, by far was/is the hardest of all for me to shed. Specifically "family guilt". I identified with Reardon strongly for this reason. It was if when he finally got it....he stood up from the pages and said "Amy, re-read this part....it is you within a different context!" So yeah, the identification was resounding for me.
Looking to the future:
I have since learned that spirituality has nothing to do with religion. It comes from life and living life to its fullest extent. I no longer take anything for granted and check my premise often. While I don't neccessarily consider myself an O'ist, its closer than any other lable atm(if I must label). I also know for a fact, that it is a continual, perpetual exisitence; meaning, that I will never stop learning.....never give in again to "acceptence". Considering at what I have read here thus far, this concept is re-affirmed. I am relatively new on my journey, in comparison to some of the folks here, but it is a path I am eager to continue.
I am not familiar w/ the Brandens beyond the brief chapter in "Ayn Rand's- A Sense of Life", but am looking forward to reading their works. This is one of the main reasons I joined here, to expose myself to the undiscovered. I am just now "dipping my toes into the waters" compared to the life-long journeys you people have been undergoing. I look forward to exchanging thoughts, ideas and perspectives.
Another area of this board has peaked my interests: The parenting forum. I will dapple in there I am sure. I am trying to find a balance in raising my children...but more to come of that later.
To complete the "irony circle" is the base that a fantasy writer lead me to reason.
I have since had the honor of meeting Mr. Goodkind and have learned that while he doesn't consider himself to be a "fantasy author" and abhors the implications that that title resonates, he gracefully explains that the medium is all-encompassing. He would prefer being labeled as a "novelist" instead of within a specific genre, but due to the context of his novels....it is what it is. A is A.
To sum up:
I am happy I stumbled into this lil' world. I look forward to getting to know all of you further and am eager to exchange thoughts and ideas. My brief
~Amy
